I'm aware that I've made quit a few videos saying this, and I know it's like boy cried wolf at this point, but, I do genuinely mean it this time. I'm done. I want to walk away from this account. I want to walk away from this horrible image I've brought on myself. This online life and community has destroyed me mentally and as a person. This is the core of my toxic behaviours. I want to step back, let go of this "darling" persona and just work on myself and my mental health. I used to post to cope but now it feels like I'm slaved into it. I used to brah about not having this "idol syndrome" when I have the worst case of it. I want to step back, work on myself so I can be a better person for me and the people around me. I've brought on this picture of myself that everyone sees. People see me as a disgusting, narcissistic, selfish person. That I haven't changed. and well, they're right. Ever since I got exposed I started self-sabotaging. I changed, but I'm still a bad person. I want to improve, I want to step up. For so long I thought I was an okay person but still knew something was wrong with me, what I lacked was manners, humanity, and human decency. I pray to the heavens I won't come back. I will keep my account up, but my videos will be privates. I will slowly abandon my Instagram account and YouTube account. But not my discord, I'm not ready to give that up yet. but in due time I will. I want to let go of the person I was and become someone new. I'm sorry for everything I've done, and will look forward to bettering myself. I am NOT sorry for leaving though.
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