old cringy draft// i know sorry im on hiatus again, cosplaying is way too hard to do i feel. I just never have the energy or motivation anymore at all. I want to so badly enjoy cosplaying but its just so much of a hassle and i feel like i can never get around to dojng it because im always so unprepared. I just have to keep telling myself one day ill get back into it and ill be able to enjoy and have fun while doing it, its just seeming like that day will never come. sorrh im being so emo about a dumb hobby it just meant so much to me for such a long time and it gave me so many opertunities and new friendships. if i wasnt a cosplayer i might have never connected with my best friend now so easily. I know this sounds stupid but it feels like if I am not that person then who even am I. If something this special was so important to me then why is it no longer enjoyable. I dont know. im working on other parts of myself currently, like trying to get through highschool, and my passion for animation. when i was in my peak cosplay era i didnt have to worry about going to school, i think maybe im just so drained from being me. I do REALLLYYY want to cosplay more one piece characters, particularly sanji and also nami. Ill post old drafts more often if you guys rly miss seeing my face or sum💀💀