actually… it’s not just ANY necklace. if you notice in all my videos, I wear this specific one. this is my everyday necklace that I can’t ever leave out the house with. In the pendant is my aunt’s ashes. This was gifted to me by my sister on my birthday. Background information: I had a very close and personal relationship with my aunt who struggled with mental health issues. But, I was her light despite that barrier. I didn’t go anywhere without her, including family functions. If you saw her, you saw me. My aunt, Sondra Coates, passed away in front of me in 2018. On the day she passed, earlier in that day, I had seen her in her bedroom and she looked well. I asked her “was she okay” and she told me “She just woke up from a nap, but yes.” I said “okay girl.” I didn’t think anything of it. It wasn’t unusual whatsoever. We both went downstairs, (and leading down the stairs was a bathroom) you could walk into. She went to use the restroom and she opened the door to talk to me. I entered and told her we looked so pretty as we stared at ourselves while she washed her hands. I didn’t know what happened next would be the end of my life or cause me so much pain. She came out, she said my name and all I hear was this loud drop— she was lying on the ground, gasping for air, then passed out. I ran, screaming, asking her “was she okay?” and she told me she took too many of her pills. I checked her med box and she took exactly what she needed to take so I didn’t understand. I begged her to sit up but she couldn’t move. I began to cry, calling my ex at the time, screaming teling her what happened— and she tried to comfort me but ultimately couldn’t soothe me, I was in panick mode. So I hung up. I called my mom and my mom said call 911.. (Now if you know black parents, they wanna be notified before you call 12) and I went into shock (mentally) — I grabbed my phone nervously and called 911 and as I gave information….. — She had no pulse. I attempted to perform CPR but I struggled doing so. My emotions were skyrocketed. I didn’t even know if I was doing it right because we only practiced on dummies.. Since that day, I’ve always blamed myself for not being able to save her. I was in nursing school at the time, just had a refresher class and felt like I failed her. After the autopsy came back, she suffered a heart attack. It took me awhile to accept this.. She should be here, but now? I carry her even when I decide to wear gold jewelry. She’s close, always. My personal angel. This necklace means everything to me 💔❤️🩹— .
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