Iβve struggled with hyper-independence my entire life. For years, I wore it like a badge of honor β ambitious, driven, always in control. Part of that came from how I was raised, and part of it came from painβ¦ from having to be there for myself when no one else could. But as Iβve grown in Christ, Iβve realized something sobering: God never called me to carry it all. And my need to always have a plan, a backup plan, and a plan for the backup plan β was actually hurting my ability to be led by the Holy Spirit. There is a deep beauty in surrender. In realizing that saying βyesβ to Jesus as Savior also means saying βyesβ to Him as Lord. And Lordship means I donβt get to lead my own life anymore. He does. Even when I donβt understand the plan. Even when Iβm scared. Even when I want to take matters into my own handsβ¦ like the children of Israel did in Exodus 32 when they made the golden calf out of fear. That story hits different now. They panicked. They didnβt trust. And so they made something visible to comfort themselves. Thatβs what hyper-independence is β a golden calf. Itβs fear in disguise. But Iβm learning β daily β to lay that idol down. To stop running my own life like a one-woman show. And to trust the Father who wants to lead me, guide me, and hold me. Because whoever loses their lifeβ¦ will find it. You donβt have to fight so hard. Godβs got you.
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