I miss cosplay so much. I want to get back into it so badly, but there’s a lot that prevents me from doing it. The attempts that I’ve made to cosplay fail because I don’t like the way that I look, even underneath all the makeup, or I feel like I don’t have the skills that others have. It’s not a competition, I know that, but it’s also hard to not get into that mindset when I’m surrounded by such talented people. When I do manage to cosplay, and upload something, my engagement is so bad that it makes me feel like my content isn’t good. Cosplay has connected to me to so many people over the years, and it feels like because I’m not actively cosplaying I’ve lost those connections. I don’t want to give up cosplay, though. I’m going to try to create more (so long as Tik Tok doesn’t get taken away). This rant isn’t fishing for compliments, that’s not my intention, I just wanted to try to put into words what I’ve been feeling for a while. There’s way more that goes into it than this but this is what I feel most comfortable sharing, and even sharing this much is hard for me. Especially when there are way worse things happening in the world right now.