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i say that i don't need anyone or that all i need is myself, but deep down i just want someone to love me or help me find myself. But I’ve lost everything my friends my family and myself now everything is on a constant loop an i make it stop theres nothing left i pushed everyone out my life bcuz i cant get attached for them to leave me or not be wanted. an every night i stay up till 5am almost 6am questioning my life and the decisions i've made . questioning if i could've done something differently . if i would've made that choice would i still be sad or would i be happy right now? if i wouldn't have taken out my problems on the person i loved would they still be here with me? what if instead of trying to run away from my problems .. i tried facing them instead? running away always seemed like the solution for me but in the end i realized it only made it worse . i had put things aside instead of facing them, the longer i ran away the harder it was to face it. i want to change, i want to be better not only for myself but for the people around me . but everyday it just gets harder and more discouraging . Seems like no matter how hard i try i always end up failing. My life is pointless

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@🩷 literally love you so much idk where id be without u

@natalie @🪬 🧿 @🫶🏼 @V 🌟