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The proof of the last question is this video!! …… In the dictionary, to the right of the word ANNOYING are the words: “it comes from the old French word anuier, meaning ‘to weary or vex,’ and from the Latin inodiare, meaning ‘to make loathsome.’” And to the left of the word is a picture of my Dad. • The word ANNOYING sits between the words annotates and annulled. The person ANNOYING sits next to me on the couch laughing at his own jokes and not petting me enough. • You might think my words are harsh and that I should take it easy on my Dad who loves me more than anything in the world. But you saw the video. Did you see how much of my food he ate?! And don’t think that was the first take either. Case closed. #beatcancer #dogdad #couplesquiz #PetsOfTikTok #scruffabella #rescuedogsoftiktok

I don’t really understand what the big deal is…So from what I can tell every four years there’s an event in a random city where people look at old limb pics. Well, ok I mean that’s if you like warm weather. There’s a cold version that’s also every four years but it starts two years late. I think that’s because it takes longer to get it all started when things are frozen: like the time my Dad forgot to thaw the turkey on Thanksgiving and we waited to eat for what felt like the equivalent of two years. Anyway, the events of the old limb pics are symbolized by a bunch of rings. If you count them you can find out how old the tree is. FYI, that formula doesn’t work on stuffed animals because I ripped a bunch of mine in half to see if they were lying about their age and all I discovered was that my Dad has an issue with stuffing covering the floor. That kind of surprised me because we all know he’s gonna break a hip any day now, so you’d think he’d appreciate the extra padding to cushion the fall. Apparently not everyone practices gratitude. The biggest controversy this year seems to be the addition of breakdancing as part of the old limb pics events. This seems to occur when the tree limbs are broken and made into cardboard that people unfold before dancing on their heads. Once again, the cotton stuffing on the floor seems to be a better choice for that type of activity but I realize they need to stick with their brand. Just for some extra trivia, the old limb pics started in 776 BC which I’m pretty certain stands for Broadway Championship because they all performed in Grease. They wore togas instead of poodle skirts in that version, most likely to avoid the dogs from relieving themselves on all the trees. All the limbs get made into a torch and it would would be too damp to light it. Anyway, I just wanted to pass along the info. There might be a couple inconsistencies, you know how I only pay attention to every 3rd sentence when my Dad teaches me stuff, but I’m sure it’s close enough. Hope youre enjoying the weekend! #dogsoftiktok #olympics #dogswatchingtv #PetsOfTikTok #scruffabella

I watched a nature show that said squirrels are known for putting their nuts in trees or in the dirt - and those who do it best have a higher status within their community. It’s funny how all species are different with things like that. I remember during the holidays when Mr Callahan had a second glass of egg nog and hid his nuts in the lime jello without realizing it was for the potluck. It didn’t really elevate his status in the community, in fact quite the opposite. He only ended up with a night asleep on the couch and a green stain on his pants. People are weird. • Hope you are all enjoying your week. May you be so lucky to have a squirrel jump on the path in front of you too! #beatcancer #squirrelpatrol #dogsoftiktok #scruffabella #PetsOfTikTok

She did it!! Bella made it thru her sixth and final round of chemo yesterday. • Thank you to all the kind and loving people at True Care For Pets - from those at the front desk to the wonderful Dr. Koo (putting Bella’s grad cap on in the video) and everyone in between. You have all been so thoughtful and caring to Bella and to us each and every visit. Thank you for giving Bella such a sweet celebration for her last chemo appt. You’ve all made it so comfortable for us. We can’t thank you enough. Much love to you all. • Thank you to everyone here on TT for sending good thoughts, prayers and comments during the past few months. It means more than we can say. Bella has been putting up a good fight, trying to prove shes going to be the one who beats it! Please check us out over at In sta too for more details. We are still taking it all day by day. Thank you for continuing to follow our journey. #beatcancer #dogcancersucks #PetsOfTikTok #graduation #scruffabella #truecareforpets

Bella will always be the love of my life. She continues to be happy and her usual self, as if she doesn’t have anything inside her at all. We are still just taking it day by day and enjoying as much time with each other as possible. • Thank you for sharing your stories of your dogs with Cancer or hemangio sarcoma as well as your experiences with or without chemo. It’s really helping me to read thru from all angles. Don’t hesitate to keep them coming and sharing your story. • I’ll continue to update you all. So far, so good. Since we can’t be sure how long this platform will be available, please also follow us on I G for the most updates and info. Thank you again for following and sending good thoughts our way. Much love ❤️ • #PetsOfTikTok #rescuedog #dogcancer #tikdog #scruffabella

What do you think I should do next now that I’m cone free after my spleen removal surgery? My Dad says I should do something simple so he can stop worrying for a minute. But what fun would that be? I know he’s been stressed out with everything tho. I went to see a cardiologist and although I have a mitral valve issue (once again, just like my Dad) my heart is in great shape and shows no sign of any masses attached to it. We had a consultation with an oncologist to discuss the various options to treat my hemangiosarcoma and now that the heart exam went well, I can take any of those routes. My Dad has been weighing the options and trying to decide which way to go. He had been dead set against me having any kind of chemo but was happy to find that it’s different than the human type and wouldn’t make me sick like that. The other option is a newer way of targeting how the cancer attacks and spreads by analyzing the genetics of the spleen that was removed. My Dad didn’t know if they still would even have the spleen at this point, but was surprised to learn they keep the organs for a long time after surgery. I’m full of energy and my same goofy self who just wants to play and get into trouble. So it’s hard for my Dad to choose something that would diminish my quality of life in any way. We will keep you all posted. Thank you for all the love and support. All your kind words and prayers definitely help. I know it’s been hectic and haven’t been able to respond to all your comments just yet but my Dad reads them to me and it means more than you know. Love to you all. More soon. #scruffabella #dogcancer #tiktokpets #rescuedogsoftiktok #tikdog

Bella’s 1 Second Everyday March 2024 recap. My Dad has been using @1secondeveryday each day since he brought me home from the shelter 8 1/2 years ago. I hope you enjoy this months edition. #1secondeveryday #rescuedogsoftiktok #coneofshame #scruffabella #PetsOfTikTok

Bella would have celebrated her 10th birthday on September 16, one week after she passed. These are some of the signs from that day. • I asked someone once to explain to me what a coincidence truly is. Unfortunately he didn’t have a clue, but oddly enough, he said he had been wondering that exact same thing when I asked. • Still missing Bella like crazy. Since we were barely ever apart for nine years, these past two months without her has made it feel like it’s been an eternity since I saw her last. Thank you all for so many kind comments and messages. It means everything to know she touched so many of you over the years. I’ve been watching old videos and looking at old pics non stop. Since I took all the videos, I remember what it was like with her in those moments and for a split second it feels like I’m there with her again. I’ll post more of her unseen footage and favorite videos soon to keep her spirit alive. I’m glad you still want to see more of her. Still taking things one minute at a time. Much love to you all. #PetsOfTikTok #rainbowbridge #rescuedog #muttsoftiktok #scruffabella

Bella is finally back home… • On that day I woke up, knowing Bella’s ashes were going to arrive. I paced around all morning with no other distractions, making sure I could have full view of the door so she wouldn’t have to travel a second longer than needed. When looking through the choices of urns, nothing felt right until I saw the one shaped like a heart. I picked it, still not completely sure it was the right choice, but the moment I saw it I realized it was perfect. She filled my heart from the second I met her so it seemed appropriate that she would fill this beautiful heart from now on. • The moment I held it in my hands I could feel her. There was always a certain vibe and energy I felt anytime I held her or put my arms around her. I’ve been so sad knowing I’ll never feel that again. But the moment I had her heart in my hands I felt her. Just like I was holding her. I didn’t want to put it down for fear it was just a momentary flash. But she’s here now. She’s home. • Along with her ashes were a paw print, a nose print and clippings of her fur. As choked up as I was from this moment already, seeing her fur pushed me over the edge with tears. Something about it, maybe just seeing the same fur I’d seen every day for almost 9 years, was such an intense emotion for me. • That night I ended up sleeping on the floor in the makeshift bed of blankets and pillows that I created to give Bella some extra comfort in her final days. I still haven’t been able to take it apart in the time since she passed. Like her bed and water bowls that I haven’t yet touched, it may take me a while until I can move it from its spot. • I feel a sense of relief now that Bella is safe at home, but that ache of losing her and the empty cave she left inside of me feels just as it did on the day she left. I’m not sure that can or will ever change. I’m honestly just taking everything a minute at a time and trying to go from there. Thank you for your continued love and support during this time. It means more than I will ever be able to put into words. Much love to you all….Papa Bella. • #rescuedog #rainbowbridge #PetsOfTikTok #bestfriend #scruffabella #tikdog

The Ghost of Bellaween is here. October hasn’t quite been the same without our typical Bellaween celebration. So I thought I’d reminisce with you all about some of her past Bellaween costumes in this video. It’s true, her spirit is everywhere and it hits you when you least expect it. I see her in the pumpkins, in the Halloween colors, in everything that was fun about October. • I’m still feeling extremely lost, just going through the motions wishing I had my little girl by my side to celebrate with me. Or just cuddle with me. Or just be with me. In any way possible. I thought by now I’d feel a little better but it seems like I miss her even more with every day that passes. I truly don’t know what to do without her. Not a clue. Thank you all for the continued love and support through this time. It means more than I can say. I’ll keep posting stuff as long as you all want to see it. But don’t want to go overboard so I’ve just been laying low trying to figure out what’s next. Love to you all. • Check I G for more Bella • Oh little Bella Boo, this month is so tough for me. I miss you more than I could have ever thought possible. I want to decorate with you and laugh with you and see you give me a dirty look as I try to get you to wear a costume. I miss your paw on my leg and your head on my chest. Life is just empty without you. My love always. Papa Bella. #halloweendog #dogcostume #PetsOfTikTok #scruffabella #rescuedogsoftiktok

She left this world the next morning… • Bella hadn’t eaten much her last few days so I tempted her with a little deli turkey that I hadn’t given her in years ever since I changed her diet due to her pancreatitis. I was mad at myself for giving her something that I knew might trigger her pancreatitis again but was so desperate to get her to eat something. Had I known they were her last days I would have probably let her eat anything. • From the very first day I brought Bella home from the shelter I feared the day when she would leave. I knew that it would be the worst day of my entire life. That day was Monday. But it wasn’t exactly what I expected. In fact, it was a hundred times worse than I ever imagined it would be. I felt a pain that I never even knew could exist. I still do. I’m not sure it will ever go away. It’s just a part of me now. • Thank you all for your wonderful comments and messages of support. I had always admired Joe Camp who was the creator of Benji. Those videos made my life when I was a kid. I always wished I could find a dog that would be so expressive and tell a whole story with a single look so I could create something that he did to inspire everyone to think differently about shelter dogs. Tho I never reached quite as many people as he was able to with Benji, your messages have shown me how many of you Bella touched and felt your lives were better after having seen her videos all these years. That’s what I hoped for. And I truly hoped I inspired some people to adopt shelter dogs who wouldn’t have otherwise. That was my greatest wish. • I’ll continue to post pics and videos of Bella for awhile as long as you want to see them. For every single video that I’ve posted of her over the years, there’s just as many that I never shared or finished how I wanted. So as I’m reminiscing and finding them, I may post some of those never seen videos in addition to some of your favorites. • I honestly don’t know what I’m doing. I’m now going to be walking aimlessly through the days. I feel so lost without her. I guess I’ll figure it out as I go along. Much love to you all from a broken heart. 💔 • #rescuedog #rainbowbridge #PetsOfTikTok #dogsoftiktok #scruffabella

She missed it by a week… • The past couple weeks have been a bit of a struggle. Three weeks after her final chemo visit they found nodules on Bella’s liver and she started to decline. This past week she stopped eating, barking, wagging and had difficulty breathing. She started passing out every time she drank water and then whenever she was excited. It was so hard to stop her from doing what made her so happy for fear she would topple over. Strangely she would get a boost of energy each time I cried and she licked my tears. I started thinking that my tears were magic and I’d keep her alive if I cried every night. • Sunday night was rough. She couldn’t sleep all night unable to put her head down and breathe. Monday morning we took her to the ER vet. They put her in an oxygen tank and she waited for me. I put my hand thru the hole to pet her for a minute and then she toppled over. The vet put her into my arms. I played the two songs I played to her 9 years ago on the drive home from the shelter and sang to her. She looked at me the whole time and smiled. Then her eyes glossed over and she died in my arms. • Bella was so perfect to me. I loved every single thing about her. The things that would annoy most people I loved. She saved me and changed my life for the better. She was my best friend and who I loved most in my entire life. All I ever wanted was a dog of my own. She was my dream come true in every sense of the word. I just wish we had more time together. • I came home yesterday after sitting with her for a few hours saying goodbye. I don’t know what to do now nor what my life is without her. I haven’t been away from her for more than 5 hours in 9 years. I’m not sure if I’ll be here rambling away or if I’ll disappear for awhile. I’ll just take each day as it comes. • Thanx to all of you who loved Bella and followed our journey. I will continue to post pics and videos as much as I can to keep her spirit alive. If you want to share some of your memories of her in the comments that would mean a lot. I truly don’t know how I will ever recover from losing her. Much love to you all. • #scruffabella #rescuedog #dogdad #PetsOfTikTok #dogsoftiktok #loveofmylife #foreveryoung

Time flies like an arrow… Fruit flies like a banana. • “Time goes by so slowly” - Madonna • “Tick tock tick tock tick tock…I only got four minutes, to save the world“ - Madonna • Funny how each of those lyrics contain opposite statements yet you can find truth in both. It seems like it was so long ago that Bella wore that little blue shirt, yet it’s hard to believe that it didn’t just happen yesterday. I remember when days seemed to go on forever while now I scramble to hold on to every second before the fear of time running out becomes reality. We all feel it. It’s been written about a thousand time and each of us have experienced it a thousand more. Yet it still baffles my mind every time I try to work it out in my head. I hope one day we get to figure it out. Or maybe feeling the mystery of not understanding will outweigh the actual reality. Or maybe we are asleep and experiencing the fragmented blocks of time as we imagine a dream. Possibly all of the above. But most likely none. Tho who knows, I hadn’t planned to write any of this. And yet I did. Or maybe I did plan to write it and so now I am. My only suggestion is for you to go right now and hug your pup or snuggle your cat and enjoy it for an extra moment. And hold on to that brief slice of time and remember that it was well worth trading that minute of your time to give them an extra boost of love. In fact, that’s probably why I wrote this to begin with. I just didn’t remember it til now. Much love #thenandnow #puppytiktok #rescuedogs #imjustakid #scruffabella

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