Trigger warning poorly baby🛑 i dont think ive actually fully processed what ive been through the last 3 weeks, from having to have a emergency c section due to babies heart rate dropping multiple times to my darling boy being poorly and having to be in hospital. The texts i sent my sister whilst being in hospital with him dont even begin to show how i felt whilst being there. Ive never felt so useless, down, guilty, upset and drained. I didnt sleep for days but you just get strength as you have no choice but to just carry on. Seeing all tubes in your few week old baby is honestly heart breaking. Nothing prepares you for the worry that your baby can put you through. Ive never felt love like it but that doesnt mean that i havent been struggling. We still have good days and bad days but i wouldnt change it for the world. My darling strong boy mama will do anything for you✨
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