You Love “Too Hard” Whenever I’ve heard other people say this, or I’ve thought it of myself, it’s usually following a tough break in a relationship. In my experience, the times when I’ve felt like I’ve “loved too hard” were times when I overextended myself too early in a relationship. When I sought to establish intimacy too quickly in order to feign (fight off or prevent) rejection. I would often (and sometimes still do) engage in a variety of actions, like love bombing, manipulation, oversharing, etc. Although I was aware of what I hoped to gain from my actions, I rarely felt I knew the reasons below the surface. Since then, I have come to a greater understanding of my “why,” and maybe you can relate to this. I’ve loved “too hard” because: • I was afraid of rejection/I’ve experienced hurt in the past. • I was afraid of general loss. (I’ve moved around so often that it’s hard to feel secure in my relationships.) • I wanted to speed up the bonding process. • I was not confident in God’s ability to provide friends and companionship for me. • I was not content with the existing relationships in my life. It took time to examine my own actions, and I couldn’t do it alone. My revelations came from prayer to God, the critiques of close friends, and the advice of family. Speaking of “critique,” it’s not an easy decision choosing NOT to be offended. Even though I’ve still got a lot of work to do, the benefits of examining my own actions have produced better character within me. Nowadays, I am more patient and trusting of the “friend-making” process, and I am a little bit better at facing rejection without internalizing it. I am also more willing to let a friendship naturally develop (or not) than I used to be. So think about this question: Are you ‘loving too hard’, or just moving too quickly?