For as long as I can think back, one of my biggest fears has always been change, and in the last year l've received my biggest taste of it. My mental health crumbled, I fell back into the hands of addiction and I struggled to stay consistent on my walk with God. As the year came to an end, God had sought me out and once again showed me an unwavering grace and mercy that I no longer wanted to take for granted. Unfortunately, addiction still had a deadly grasp on my family and for my son, my sobriety and my salvation, 1 knew God was calling me to move forward in obedience, and to leave the life I had found comfort in behind, including my spouse. I didn't understand in the moment what God was asking of me, I was heartbroken, defeated and felt like a complete failure.
#ButGod had a purpose in my pain. He collected my broken pieces and used them to build me back up into the Woman of God He has always intended me to be. Even when you don't see the end of the race, PLEASE KEEP GOING. The enemy will come to kick you when your down in the form of self doubt, judgement, false accusations, and hate.. PLEASE DONT LET THAT SHAKE YOU. KEEP GOING. Find a reason to praise Him still. In my deepest pain, I praised Him for my sobriety, I praised Him for the new things He was doing for my son and I and I Praised him for the strength to walk away from the things and people that no longer aligned with His will for my life but that I thought I couldn't live without. I hope this part of my testimony can help anyone who doesn't see a way out, who feels they are too broken for God's grace or who are scared to leave what's comfortable. GOD CAN & HE WILL.
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