Long Caption: I got my girl in April of this year.. I worked my a** off to build my credit & save up the money to grab her. She was perfect in every way. My kids named her SilMia. Today I decided to make the difficult decision to voluntarily surrender my car back to the lien-holder.. This is due to my newly discovered seizure activity, which automatically bans me from driving for at least six months so far. That clock can reset at any moment, if i were to have another unconscious seizure, which i believe i have had many in my sleep…. My car note plus insurance is over $800 a month. I have kids & a household that I maintain alone, so my car is one thing I’m willing to let go of to help offset daily living costs.. I understand all of the repercussions of surrendering. The rep that answered my call to surrender was an older black woman.. She was so sweet, so understanding, so caring, & so patient. She wished me well health from the very beginning of the call as soon as she heard my story. She prayed over me. She made the process understandable and very simple. She even put in a request to waive any remaining balance after the surrender. I was terrified of this process, yet she made me feel so comfortable & confident in my decision. She preferred me & my kids’ safety over anything🥹 Then there was the Tow-Truck Driver. He asked me why I was surrendering my car & I explained. He immediately stopped everything he was doing & told me his story of how he had just gotten his license back after his own sporadic seizures last year. He begged me not to sink into that “dark hole” because he knows the feeling all too well. He begged me to keep fighting. I needed to hear that because I have been sinking. I haven’t been present. I haven’t been showing up at all. I’ve been doing the bare minimum in every aspect of my life because this… is more than just tough. My life has been snatched away from me yet again. I’m not able yet again. I know I’m not done. I know I can beat this. A lot of yall have watched my story in pieces since the beginning, and watched me come back every time. Its crazy to see everything manifest into one big condition after all these years. I’m just exhausted y’all… I’m beyond exhausted…
#goddessarami #seizures #seizuresawareness #epilepsy ..???