i never thought the day would come were i wouldn’t know how your life has been going. it’s weird not having you around anymore, i miss you man. idk how you can just shut us out of your life like we were nothing to you..im still here waiting for you to tell me that you need to have one of our talks. i’m sorry if we made you feel unwelcome but we just wanted to get you help. i’ve heard you are doing okay which is amazing, but i miss my lil ian. things different without you, but on some sad shi we’ve adapted to life without you just like you have. your choices and actions have hurt us. sometimes i hate you for the pain you put us through and wanna smack ts you, and other days i just wanna hug you and cry. it’s been over a year since ive seen or heard from you, everyone asks me if i have heard from you and how you are doing..and it breaks my heart to tell them that i have no idea how you are, and that i haven’t seen you or talked to you. i really hope your new life is doing great things for you. but the decisions you’ve made are very selfish, but AYE ive never been one to judge you..EVER. you were my safe space for a long time and stood 10 toes behind you, and ik i was one for you too whether you admit it or not. i hope. a lot had happened since you’ve been gone. A LOT. amazing things and not so amazing things. i’ve been sitting here typing this with tears going down my face, and then they stop because ik you’ll never see this or reach out to me or anything, and then they come again. i really wish i could understand what goes through your head, but i never will. ian..i love you so f-ing much. but i hate you at the same time. i hope you come back and make thing right bc ive always wanted you at my wedding..and to meet your future nephew/neice. and all the big marks in life. but clearly you don’t care nm, so ima try and learn how to do that too. ily4L stay safe.. -riaghlee
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