Being snowed in this past weekend, slowing down, and spending a bunch of family time together, gave me some additional time to process what has easily been the most difficult months of my life. I feel like what I have been experiencing is similar to the stages of grief. Over the weekend, I feel like I landed at acceptance for all that has happened. It still feels very raw and real but I’m able to think about it and already begin to see the ways I have grown both as a mom and just a human. I can see how I was faced with some of my darkest fears and I was able to fight. Fight for Luca, advocate for him, and show up with a strength I honestly didn’t know I had. I leveled up in what I thought my ceiling was and blew through it. My endurance is higher. My resilience has increased. I watched my baby fight and just when I would think it was all over, he was back in the race giving it his all. This taught me a lot. We were not giving up. Six months ago, if you would have presented me with what we would go through, I would have told you I wouldn’t survive it. But here we are. But God. We survived. We grew. God is good.
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