My first viral video. On my page it never got over 1 million views, but someone shared it and it was all over social media. It came across famous YouTuber “Better Bachelor” radar and he did an entire episode about me. my anxiety, went through the roof when I found out. It took me a long time to be able to watch it, but it wasn’t that bad. He did say I was attractive, but he had a lot of misinformation from not knowing anything about me. He assumed that I was a slim hottie in my 20s just using men left and right, when I was a homebody, married and 70 pounds heavier in my 20s. I didn’t leave my husband. He passed away. It was brutal reading the comments on this video. People assuming things that weren’t true. I carried men that I loved, I lifted them up when they were down and I was always team them, but I was never going to the Super Bowl with them. I was cut or so belittled and shown no affection that I left. It broke me and I kept gathering up the pieces, trying to put my life back together. I receive no child support but I do what’s needed. It’s a lonely place sometimes. Dating at 45…I’m about to explore but I’m different now and I want different things.it won’t be the same. The world has moved on and not for the better. I enjoy my moments and take them when I can. When I’m making my silly videos and get people to laugh too. When my boys are being sweet. When I’m being spun around the dance floor or dancing with my bestie, lost in the music. And yes, sometimes enjoying the hot dogs. Be happy and enjoy the moments and try to avoid the drama. #
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