Also excuse the single tear I’m in my feels today… this wanting to control the way things look has always been a defense mechanism for me, if my hair is in place, if i wear the right clothes, if i wrap the perfect present the perfect way, make the perfect meal, plan the perfect trip, if im always nice and make things nice for others, no one will want to hurt me… it doesnt accomplish anything but giving me more anxiety, ive been working hard on letting things be, being in the moment, going with the flow, especially for my girl who deserves to wrap the presents for our loved ones with LOVE and have a good time around the holidays with her mom…
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