I always thought that if I healed my binge eating disorder that everything would be better. I never realized how the old ways, of that version of myself, would haunt the version I’ve become. I’m constantly living in fear of gaining weight again. Constantly obsessing over food and my intake. Constantly observing what others are thinking about me. It’s truly exhausting and I’m so tired of feeling this way. I feel stuck in a trap at times of relying on my camera to restore my confidence and validate my weight loss. Sometimes I cannot even leave my house if I can’t find that validation that I don’t look the same as old me. I’m truly working on healing from this because it’s been my normal for such a long time now that I’ve never seen a problem with it till I say it out loud. 🫣 This song is so powerful because the lyrics are exactly how I feel. Haunted by old habits and old versions of myself. Hopefully this reaches people who are currently going through this and can feel less alone, I love you and we got this. 🤍
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