Long Time no see. This year I haven’t been as transparent with my journey. Truth be told, I have been struggling to feel confident about myself. For a while now, I have been trying to figure out what is it about jumping I used to love. What made it fun, exciting, exillitaring? When I started I was unaware of my talent, the event, and to be honest it was the only sport that gave me the same feeling as a gymnast. The last month, I’ve realized that I no longer was jumping for myself. I no longer had confidence in myself because I got so far away from my why. It became about results, attaining a certain distance, qualifying for X meet and so forth. Last year I used to post a lot about my journey. When I didn’t attain my goal, I shut down and lost my confidence day by day. So I told myself this year would be a season of silence. At practice, I find myself in a comfortable, challenging and yet safe environment to explore, have fun and even do amazing things Right now, my biggest challenge has been to bring a true confidence to a competition. I know that my performances are a mere reflection of my ability. I know that I am capable of so much more. But so far it’s been hard and something has not clicked yet. I’ve had 3 frustrating completions 3 weekends in a row. Struggle to find my rhythm, board, and most of all CONFIDENCE. Meet 1- 6.18m 3 fouls Meet 2- 6.20- 4 fouls Meet 3- 5.96- 4 fouls Today I choose to let go of the things I cannot control and be honest about the reality of this sport. For me, training is hard but doable, lifting and speed are my strengths, mentality I struggle. I know my big jumps are around the corner. I continue keep faith in Allah SWT and all will happen in due time. I thank God everyday for my amazing teammates & coach for upping my morale during these times. Love you guys. Let’s rebuild our confidence and have more fun day by day🤍
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