Kitten Nuggets & Vodka

I hope if Win knows one thing, she knows how much I love her ❤️ #sweetbaby #winnie #babygirl #daughter #fy #growingup #biggirl #Love #loveyou #mama #nicubaby #novemberultra #11monthsold #moonandstars #fyp

Have i finally found the vacuum of my dreams? 😂 Litter beware! #CleanTok #vacuum #cleaningtiktok #clean #omg #fy #catlitter #buyit #isitgood

How is my baby almost 1?!? So incredibly proud of my little Win but I feel like she was so tiny just yesterday 😭 #sweetbaby #winnie #babygirl #mama #nicubaby #mybaby #birthday #biggirl #growingup #timeslowdown #Love #forevermybaby #fy #fyppppppppppppppppppppppp

Have you had the Cinnabon pull aparts from @Wendy’s? It was not what I was expecting and i am really sad about it! #food #foodreview #cinnabon #wendys #pretendfoodie

I jinxed myself. The FeLV babies were all doing so great but then Baby Lasagna took a turn for the worse. My heart is so, so sad and I will share more later. For now, I am thankful for @Dunkin' and their pup cup. He loved it so, so, much. ❤️ Sometimes making the best decision is the hardest. #sayinggoodbye #pupcup #dunkin #update #kittennuggets #kittensoftiktok #kittens #adoptdontshop #felv #sweetbaby #foster #fy #cat #sad #rainbowbridge

Update on where I have been! #update #kittennuggets #kittensoftiktok #kittens #cat #adoptdontshop #felv #kitten #fyppppppppppppppppppppppp #fy

I know I know.. I post her a lot 😂 She is the best thing that has ever happened to me ❤️ #mybaby #babygirl #winnieanne #sweetbaby #preemie #nicubaby #howlucky #bestthing #lucky #best #bestfriend #babiesoftiktok

Everything. Always ❤️ #winnieanne #babygirl #daughter #loveyou

My reason. Every one of my fosters is ny baby until the end, whether they are adopted or not. Each one is a life changed and It makes a difference. Rescue makes a difference. #rescue #adoptdontshop #babies #fosterkittens #fosteringsaveslives #kitties #catsoftiktok #cats #kittennuggets #kittensoftiktok #kitten #fy #fyppppppppppppppppppppppp #sosweet

YEAH NATHAN I DONT CARE 😂 #iloveit #kittensoftiktok #kittens #kittennuggets #bkb #fy #kitten #cats #catsoftiktok #kittensoftiktok #fyppppppppppppppppppppppp #lovethem #sosweet #allthekitties #MemeCut #Meme #MemeCut

Ugh. I hate FeLV. I hate FeLV but I love these babies, so damn much and my heart breaks every time I get closer to having to make the call that it’s time. 💔 The other day I was in the car going over and over about making the right decision for Sweetie to go home. I was struggling on if it was too soon, if she needed more time, and was spiraling in my own thoughts. Then the song “it’s time to go” by Taylor Swift (a song I’d never actually heard before) came on my random Spotify playlist . I instantly took it as a sign when I heard these lyrics - “… That old familiar body ache The snaps from the same little breaks in your soul You know when it's time to go” Sometimes with fostering we have to make tough decisions. Saying goodbye to any animal is difficult but saying goodbye to a baby kitten is a different type of hard, especially because sometimes it feels like you’re the one sentencing them to death even if your logic is reminding you that’s untrue. With the unearned guilt that comes with that thought I can’t shake, I have to remember that I am not the grim reaper but it is the FeLV that is. Does that thought help? Yes and no, a juxtaposition of some sort you may say. I could go back and forth on that thought forever (logic is not real when you are sad), I knew it was time for Sweetie to be at peace. She was in pain and she could hardly do her favorite thing in the world, which was rubbing her face against mine. These decisions are hard but also beautiful. If it were up to these babies, they’d live in pain and suffering forever to be by us, to stay our sidekicks forever. We are these babies sun /‘d moon and stars and all things that glitter- they don’t care that their body aches. Anyway, if you’re still here, thanks for reading. If you have had to make a choice like this, foster or not, thank you. Sometimes doing the right thing is the hardest decision you will have to make, but that I logic still doesn’t help the ache in your heart when you leave the vet with the heaviest empty carrier in the world. 💔 #timetogo #taylorswift #sayinggoodbye #felv #kittensoftiktok #kittens #kittennuggets #bkb #fy #cat #grief #petgrief #missingyou #rainbowbridge🌈 #rainbowbridge #babygirl

Oh Prim… 😂 #kitten #catsoftiktok #kittensoftiktok #kittennuggets #bkb #fy #fyppppppppppppppppppppppp #cat #baby #snoo #meow #party

Still one of my best kitten glowups! Primmy Rose ❤️❤️ #kitten #catsoftiktok #glowuptips #glowupchallange #kittensoftiktok #kittennuggets #bkb #growingup #fy #fyppppppppppppppppppppppp #cat #babygirl