While I LOVE myself, feel confident, even as I am now, and am so grateful for my body, this is something I have had daydreams about for years. If you’ve ever been the big girl in elementary, the chubby friend in the group, the one whose weight was discussed amongst close and distant relatives, then you know the intense work it takes to love yourself as you are and yet still push to be healthier. You know the mental battle day in and day out. Fighting thoughts of “My body isn’t working how it should” “My hormones are off” “What’s the point?” “I failed again” You know what dreaming of what it would feel like to have a flat stomach, to be fit or just…not so fat. Imagining how people would treat you if you looked different. If you don’t lose weight your lazy. If you do lose too much then you become a “you don’t know what it’s like” You suddenly can’t say “fat” and you’re too small for heavier people to feel like you understand. I will probably always feel like that overweight 10 year old. The girl put on phentermine at 12. The girl that never had a tummy where she could see her lower half without pulling her stomach back, not once in her life. I will refer to myself as “fat”, because I was. It’s not an insult. It’s a fact that I have faced and own- regardless of the reasons I was. It’s taken me til 32 years old to overcome those demons. To truly love ALL of myself at ALL my stages. I do love myself. I’d stay in this skin happily if there weren’t other options. I’d rock it! But, thankfully, there is another option right now. And it’s an option I am so grateful and happy to take!
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